Yesterday I didn't publish a blog post. While very few of you probably noticed, it was actually pretty significant. In not publishing a post, it was the very first day (weekday to clarify) in my 2+ years of blogging that I have not published something. The reason was surprisingly simple: I didn't have anything to say (or at least nothing to say that I could type up fairly quickly!).
But as I sat trying to scan my brain for something...anything...to type I realized this was symptomatic of a larger problem. This blog is mine. No one holds me accountable for a daily posting (except maybe my sister). But yet I feel a certain compulsion/responsibility to make sure there is a post each day. Why do I create such high expectations for myself? And then I realized this was actually symptomatic of a bigger problem of mine.
I expect our house to be orderly despite the fact that we have a toddler and infant living here. I expect to spend my days playing non-stop with my children (at least until nap time) and feel like I am failing when I take a few minutes to put on the tv for them. I expect to go to the gym 5 days a week...no fail. And the list goes on and on.
Is this a mom thing? Or a perfectionist thing? Or maybe it's Pinterest's fault (although in fairness I was doing most of these things before I ever discovered the time-sucker!)?
Whatever the source, my new decision is to try to reign myself in. If I don't have something blog-worthy to discuss one day, so what!?! If I want to spend one of the boys' nap time watching tv and laying on the couch, it's ok! And if we spend a day running errands instead of doing something tot-friendly, the boys will survive.